kushKrawlin
Well-Known Member
I guess Im posting this to just remind everyone how important it is to tell your mom you love her... I really don't know. Just thought I would remind Yall to be sure and call your mom once a day to tell her you love her. And see her as much as you can. About 3 or so years ago was the worst day in my life. My mom was takin from us...
I grew up In a perfect home. With a perfect family. Both parents worked their asses off to provide for us, while Makin sure we were at church on Sunday's, and Makin sure me and my sis had the best childhood ever! And I did! We were the old fashion type family that spent a lot of time together, never saw my parents even raise their voice at each other.. My mom helped more people than anyone I Have ever seen, guess that's where I get it from .. She lead a ton of folks to the lord, and would let her employees live with us if they were down and out. Lil stuff like that is what she lived for... Well cancer strikes, and after a miserable 4 years.. I guess someone decided it was her time.. My life has be a total fukin train wreck ever since. Fellas I'm not to sure I'll ever be right after that day.. My give a dam broke , and not a day goes by where I don't just sit and think about her , and how bad I miss her. You have no idea. Not rare for me to just start ballin my eyes out, usually when I'm riding a mower for hours. Guess it's cause all there is to do is think about **** .. The one thing I can't stop thinkin bout is ... WHY NOT ME?? It shoulda been my sorry ass. She didn't deserve it. I do. And would trade places at the drop of a hat. I will never know why he took her from us, I'll never know why it wasnt me instead.
Now my family has fallen apart , I have no one really. Besides a few good buddies and you guys. I don't do **** but work on my rig and stuff with my lil family I have here. Thank GOD I have my lil one now.. If not things could be really bad for me. Sorry to ramble.. The point of this thread was to remind Ya, that I know sometimes we get busy and all, believe me I do. But Ya never know when it's your time, or a loved ones time. So I highly recommend callin or goin to see your mom as much as possible. I hope and pray if Ya haven't delt with this type of lose that you don't have to for a LONG time. May be easy for some.. But this **** has Fawked me up. And I honesly don't know what to do about it... I know all the lil catch phrases, "only time will heal" "she's in a much better place" "not our place to question God".
And I agree with most. BUT here's the thing... Non of that matters or makes anythjng better. I have had a chip on my shoulder for somtime now.. I'm good at puttin a smile on anyone's face when they aren't In a good mood, I laugh and cut up more than anyone on this board.. Always have. But there will always be that chip on my shoulder. Anyways, sorry again for rambling. Hope you guys all go see your moms and have a great day. Hug her neck for me and tell her how much you love her!!!
I grew up In a perfect home. With a perfect family. Both parents worked their asses off to provide for us, while Makin sure we were at church on Sunday's, and Makin sure me and my sis had the best childhood ever! And I did! We were the old fashion type family that spent a lot of time together, never saw my parents even raise their voice at each other.. My mom helped more people than anyone I Have ever seen, guess that's where I get it from .. She lead a ton of folks to the lord, and would let her employees live with us if they were down and out. Lil stuff like that is what she lived for... Well cancer strikes, and after a miserable 4 years.. I guess someone decided it was her time.. My life has be a total fukin train wreck ever since. Fellas I'm not to sure I'll ever be right after that day.. My give a dam broke , and not a day goes by where I don't just sit and think about her , and how bad I miss her. You have no idea. Not rare for me to just start ballin my eyes out, usually when I'm riding a mower for hours. Guess it's cause all there is to do is think about **** .. The one thing I can't stop thinkin bout is ... WHY NOT ME?? It shoulda been my sorry ass. She didn't deserve it. I do. And would trade places at the drop of a hat. I will never know why he took her from us, I'll never know why it wasnt me instead.
Now my family has fallen apart , I have no one really. Besides a few good buddies and you guys. I don't do **** but work on my rig and stuff with my lil family I have here. Thank GOD I have my lil one now.. If not things could be really bad for me. Sorry to ramble.. The point of this thread was to remind Ya, that I know sometimes we get busy and all, believe me I do. But Ya never know when it's your time, or a loved ones time. So I highly recommend callin or goin to see your mom as much as possible. I hope and pray if Ya haven't delt with this type of lose that you don't have to for a LONG time. May be easy for some.. But this **** has Fawked me up. And I honesly don't know what to do about it... I know all the lil catch phrases, "only time will heal" "she's in a much better place" "not our place to question God".
And I agree with most. BUT here's the thing... Non of that matters or makes anythjng better. I have had a chip on my shoulder for somtime now.. I'm good at puttin a smile on anyone's face when they aren't In a good mood, I laugh and cut up more than anyone on this board.. Always have. But there will always be that chip on my shoulder. Anyways, sorry again for rambling. Hope you guys all go see your moms and have a great day. Hug her neck for me and tell her how much you love her!!!