This is a different kinda post for me....
I ain't the type to preach to folks.. But I just wanted to let everyone know kinda what happened to me. I know this isn't my typical post but here it goes.
I just was sittin here and thought bout all y'all... And figured I would share incase someone else is in misery like I was. Bout 2 months ago my girl left me, cause of my drug use. I was at home one night ballin my eyes out, honestly wanting to die,.. I was begging God to just take me.. And there wasn't a single part of me that was kidding .. I was done. Wanted to just be gone...
And it was then and there that something happened inside of me. I can't explain it, and I don't know why it took me 37 years to "get it". But I guess everyone is different .. That night my life changed. For the first Time in my life I kicked some habits all by myself .. And the habits ain't easy to kick. ESP sittin at home alone, with not a soul to talk to.. Since then I have for the most part been really happy and at peace with my girl being a bird brain and destroying our family. I would give anything if I could go back and change somethings but I can't. That's life I guess.
I swear I really ain't the type to preach at folks .. So don't take this like that.. I just wanted to let y'all know kinda what happened to me.. Cause I promise you this.. There is absolutely NO way i could have done this alone. Not possible. God did something to me that night and I know 100% I couldn't have done it without him. Some may think I'm nuts, and some may not.. But I'm tellin you that just when you think it's a wrap, and ya think you just can't handle it anymore.. If you really really pray and have an open heart I promise you that your life will change... I know for sure if I can do it anyone can... I just wish everyone could have the feeling I now have .. My outlook on everything has changed... I mean everything... I'm still the moron that ya knew... I just have a different heart. Real talk. Anyways just wanted to check in with y'all .. Hardline has been a MAJOR part in me havin some of closest friends and my whole life really. Hope this all made sense. I still ramble pretty bad. Think my brain is permantly screwed up from drug use. But it works half the time.
I hope all y'all are doing well.. And for the few that's not. I'm telling ya, pray... G's up.
I ain't the type to preach to folks.. But I just wanted to let everyone know kinda what happened to me. I know this isn't my typical post but here it goes.
I just was sittin here and thought bout all y'all... And figured I would share incase someone else is in misery like I was. Bout 2 months ago my girl left me, cause of my drug use. I was at home one night ballin my eyes out, honestly wanting to die,.. I was begging God to just take me.. And there wasn't a single part of me that was kidding .. I was done. Wanted to just be gone...
And it was then and there that something happened inside of me. I can't explain it, and I don't know why it took me 37 years to "get it". But I guess everyone is different .. That night my life changed. For the first Time in my life I kicked some habits all by myself .. And the habits ain't easy to kick. ESP sittin at home alone, with not a soul to talk to.. Since then I have for the most part been really happy and at peace with my girl being a bird brain and destroying our family. I would give anything if I could go back and change somethings but I can't. That's life I guess.
I swear I really ain't the type to preach at folks .. So don't take this like that.. I just wanted to let y'all know kinda what happened to me.. Cause I promise you this.. There is absolutely NO way i could have done this alone. Not possible. God did something to me that night and I know 100% I couldn't have done it without him. Some may think I'm nuts, and some may not.. But I'm tellin you that just when you think it's a wrap, and ya think you just can't handle it anymore.. If you really really pray and have an open heart I promise you that your life will change... I know for sure if I can do it anyone can... I just wish everyone could have the feeling I now have .. My outlook on everything has changed... I mean everything... I'm still the moron that ya knew... I just have a different heart. Real talk. Anyways just wanted to check in with y'all .. Hardline has been a MAJOR part in me havin some of closest friends and my whole life really. Hope this all made sense. I still ramble pretty bad. Think my brain is permantly screwed up from drug use. But it works half the time.
I hope all y'all are doing well.. And for the few that's not. I'm telling ya, pray... G's up.
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